It's a good day today.........

Ahhh it feels like it's been forever since I last posted and it makes me feel really sad, things here at home have been kinda rocky going up and going way far down.  Well whatever this stuff is nonesense anyways, I've been wondering for a while now how do you use Lj talk I'm really interested in making it work maybe it'll be fun chatting with someone voice with voice.  Well hope everyone is well and if anyone would be kind and willing enough to help me with the Lj talk really I would apreciated so much thank you.

Well it's 1:00 a.m and I can't seem to fall asleep mainly because my stomach hurts and provides some terrible imsomnia for me I feel tired but aside from the stomach pains I feel good.  On a different note Valentine's day is coming up real soon and I'm really hoping to post something sweet in my Journal or maybe for other communities as well, particularly a drawing.  

I can't belive how long it's been since I last posted and it's kinda sad but oh well, I was feeling really down some time back but now things are gonna change I can feel it.  These days I've  been  feeling a whole lot  more positive and for that reason I'll be posting more often. Christmas is coming and for once my household will be a happy one because I'm going to make it so, I'm gonna relinquish  the past get on with my life on a newer more positive plane.  2006 perhaps wasn't spectacular But it sure was an eye opener to a lot of things first of all it really did show me that there's no place like home and second to that truly apreciate your friends all year long, I was taught that the harsh way.  Third don't ever wish anything you're gonna regret and last but certainly not the least important so long as there is life then nothing is ever lost or hopeless and i'ts never too late either.  For these lectures I have been shown I will try very hard to apply them to my life from now on.Peace.

first of all I'd like to apologize to anyone whom i have might irritated or bothered in the past.  I hardly have time for posting entries so when I do it's like one big discharge for me, to release my stress and tension and it soothes my depression  that builds up, I suppose that's the reason why sometimes it does'nt seem so well thought out and really rushed and that's why I believe my entries seem extremely rude or annoying at any time I get to post  them. 

Well i can't say that things are extremely terrible, terrible would be my rooftop collapsing, my house on fire or blue cheese(I can´t make a lj cut work!!). Things have been really hectic what with my dad ignoring us, his family! it just makes me so upset that I have no one to really talk to I'm not very close to my mom either making it worse. I feel that this is longest period of time he has turned his back on us, somehow i felt that was the last straw it's been almost 2 years since he's directed a full sentence to us that made me so upset I needed to vent this out.

Thank you anyone who took the time to listen to me.

Goodnight everyone too tired to go on. Pleasent dreams everybody.

for some reason the picture does'nt show up but if you click on it you can see it. sorry about that I'll try to reload it.

Here's another one for you this one was way too adorable to ignore.

It feels like it's been too long since the last time I wrote.

I bring kiity Squall for all to see.

I bring kiity Squall for all to see.

My arms hurt a bit from the gardening work I did yesterday cuz I did'nt use a shovel I used something like it but heavier.

I feel so sad not to mention bad there have been a lot of conflicts involving my dad I can't stand him, so many times I can come pretty close to saying that I hate him but I just can't. I feel somehow I have to vent out some anger but not so sure how, I think I can let the stress out this way without causing any kind of harm and it makes me feel kinda nice, knowing that maybe there are others out there he have similar problems and can relate to what i'm feeling. So that way I don't feel too alone.

I feel a bit sleepy right now it's becoming sundown here and I begin to yawn as I stare at the sun sun sinking beyond the horizon and I begin to wonder why the nights come with such a bizzare warmth, not exactly too comforting knowing that it is supposed to be winter oh well.